here is a drawing that will go into a show. yeah the naked male.
the male butt is so powerful at times. but exposed it drives most men into fear or threat.

Herman Melville and his lover.

Caroline Wheeler's Birthday Present Caroline Wheeler's Birthday Present was made entirely from the skins of dead Jim Morrisons (Scattered over dawn's bleeding highway, I suppose...): that's why it smelled so bad. I didn't create a twisted way of looking at things I just am inspired by others.

read the lyrics of the Jazz Butchers or Throbbing Grisle. The song weeping is what Ian Curtis would call up friends and sing.

Ten points for anyone who can tell me who Caroline Wheeler is.

Ten points for anyone who can tell me the last line from the movie that Ian Curtis watched before he got the rope.

Ten points and a kiss for anyone who can tell me the last singer Ian Curtis listen too, and what that singers special connection to me.

Where does Joy Division get its name? and name covers that New Order did?

xmas is coming. i am not ready. but its not like it snuck up on me. I knew it was coming. 9 days and i am not ready. but oh well. I will make the best of it. i have a did get some forced cherry blossom branches, gold leafed them and called it my christmas branch.
Bill and I had these great christmas cow. little italian terracotta figures that were so cute. I wish i had them. I wish i had christmas again in that home. I think i want a mix of 1870 and 1940. so i think. when i get a house of my own. I will decorate it as such. and i will find the christmas cow or cocks or Hey wait, christmas cocks would be great.
i am going to find them. "did you put out the christmas cocks?" Oh look at the christmas cock in the manger. i am goin to get them.

this is my self-portrait with my mother. Its 7 feet tall by 5 feet. nice size. close up of face.

I am watching Julia and Julie, its wonderful. its so cute. If you don't dry meat it wont brown properly. makes me think maybe someone will read my blog. I don't know why I keep doing art. Its the passion. I do art because of the passion.
also about me, I have depression. It goes in cycles. Somedays its hard to get out of bed. But I still have to do art. I will lay in bed and create art. fold books. or just sit there and draw or lay there. get up with my dogs walk them. NYC is a lonely place. its a very lonely place. you need too have lots of friends. which i have to develop and keep.

So i write this blog. So is this here for me. I dont think anyone is reading it. I am doing this for myself. I create art because its my passion. doesnt matter if no one wants to see my art, buy my art, (and the final insult) discuss it.
I just make it. I have to learn that I need to give myself approval. I dont need anything else. hard lesson. stop looking it in other people and never going to get it from parents. so go ahead and look to yourself.

new paintings male nude strangers

these are new paintings. I got all the models on craigslist. they posed for me as strangers. Its a study of trust and intimacy. I was clear in my ad that it wasnt looking for sex- that i was serious looking for men to come over as strangers and meet me as such and pose naked.