I am watching Julia and Julie, its wonderful. its so cute. If you don't dry meat it wont brown properly. makes me think maybe someone will read my blog. I don't know why I keep doing art. Its the passion. I do art because of the passion.
also about me, I have depression. It goes in cycles. Somedays its hard to get out of bed. But I still have to do art. I will lay in bed and create art. fold books. or just sit there and draw or lay there. get up with my dogs walk them. NYC is a lonely place. its a very lonely place. you need too have lots of friends. which i have to develop and keep.

So i write this blog. So is this here for me. I dont think anyone is reading it. I am doing this for myself. I create art because its my passion. doesnt matter if no one wants to see my art, buy my art, (and the final insult) discuss it.
I just make it. I have to learn that I need to give myself approval. I dont need anything else. hard lesson. stop looking it in other people and never going to get it from parents. so go ahead and look to yourself.